Do what now?

Ok...

So, when Aiden called yesterday to cancel, did I take it too well? Was I too supportive? Of course I was crushed, but I don't want to seem naggy or anything- so I played it off like it was totally cool.

I understand, sweetie. I have bills too, you know.

Or was there a certain desperation in my voice. Did I not hide my sadness well enough?

This sucks.

I haven't heard from him since yesterday. I called his house a few times and I keep getting the answering machine. Should I stop calling? He's just not that into you says that I shouldn't have called in the first place. Actually He's just not that into you says that I should have taken the frickin' hint when he canceled yesterday. I don't know about that book... I mean, a lot of it makes sense, but ... I mean really, there are certain things that NO one will do for another person- no matter HOW interested they are, especially when everything is still new. But there I go, making excuses.

That's the problem with this book... EVERY excuse (whether it's a good reason or not) is completely debunked with "He's just not that into you." and any kind of justification for these actions are seen as "making excuses."

This still sucks. It's way past my bedtime. I just wish I could stop glancing at my phone every 5 minutes wondering if he called and I somehow missed it.

I'm pathetic.